REALITY- UNPLUGGED!

I want to curl up like a foetus,
Block out the world around me,
Not to feel anything, to close my eyes for a long time,
I am hurting, paying for my past crimes,
Just feel the numbness of an unknown drug, coursing through my veins,
Shut out reality, hide all my fears, tinged with regret, my past.
I want God to take away all my sadness, my only prayer, an impossible hope, my barren, so vast.
                                                                                                           TAZEIN

TO THOSE DEAR PRECIOUS FRIENDS WHO FEEL THEY ARE NOT WORTH IT, FEEL ALONE AND DEPRESSED- A SPECIAL MESSAGE FROM ME!

The woman you see before had a terrible past.
Facts:
1-I have Borderline Personality Disorder, though completely cured now! I suffered each and every symptom of this illness.
2-I tried to commit suicide more than 15 times, yet always survived.In the end I gave up! What was the use, God kept on giving me life!
3- I am a survivor of physical abuse , though now o.k. since 10 years.
4-I am a survivor of mental abuse, always told my life was worthless, hear it even now, but I do not let it affect me!
I survived! I am a very blessed and contented person now, I aim to inspire everyone- this is my life's mission!I Iove life, I love myself, accept myself , and have forgiven the person who abused me,The peace that comes with forgiving the person who abused you is awesome! I have started working on my book.I have never felt more alive! I have so much to accomplish, I hope I finish my book and get it published.
If I can survive, can't you? Maybe your story is much worse than mine , maybe better.Live each day, cherish it, we don't know how long we are alive, so make each second count,I have already shared my life story here and on my blogs,they are public, you can read them to gain inspiration!
Good luck my dearest friends!

MY JOURNEY!

I am alone in this journey of life,
Walking the path seldom traveled, filled with strife,
I need a shoulder to cry on, I need love along the way,
Yet, I see no one there for me,
I am tired of dragging myself along,
Just want to give in, to whom do I belong?
Yet, I will never stop this ride,
Ultimately, it will turn out to be my paradise!
                                                                        TAZEIN
                                                                           20.3.2013.

WHO AM I?

Who am I, what is the purpose of my existence?

This question remains in my heart with great persistence,

I see myself in random people,

In a beautiful flower, a towering mountain, the scenic nature,

My whole life is based on searching for the correct answers,

Finally, I realized that I was meant to inspire people, and love them,

There are still momentous events in my life story still, left to be shared, left behind,

I am grateful for each New Day

Somehow, I know I will make my own way!

                                                                                                       TAZEIN

                                                                                                             20.3.2013.

MY LOVE STORY-PART ONE!

I loved you yesterday, I love you today,
Hold me in your arms,otherwise I will surely fade away!
We had our disagreements, I shed a million tears,
Yet, I cherish you in my heart,
You are the reason of my being,
My beloved sweetheart!
May we see the light of tomorrows,
Our days filled with love, sometimes tinged with sorrow.
I want to grow old at your side,
Never want to leave your embrace,
Sometimes. I feel insecure and cry,
The minute you touched me, all my defenses crumbled by,
Thank you for being there , for your care,
I feel not alone, You are in my heart and soul,literally in my prayers!
TAZEIN
11.3.2013

MY FRIEND!

You shy away from the limelight,,
All you like, you have put up a great fight!
Yet, I can see flame burning within.
A beautiful halo, a person who cares and shares, who does not shatter.
You are fighting your personal demons
Believe that God holds you in His Embrace,
With Him by your side, all your battles with dignity you face!
                                                                                         TAZEIN
                                                                                           11.3.2013.

YOUR SOUL!-MY PRAYER FOR YOU!-THANK YOU FOR YOUR GREAT SUPPORT!

  
I want to wipe the tears off your eyes,
And replace them with a beautiful smile!
I want to hold your hand when you are broken down,
I want to forever remain your friend, through the highs and lows,
I want to embark on your journey, as we travel through time, letting it flow,
Together, my support for you will never waver!
You can trust me, a request from me, a humble favor!
                                                                                       TAZEIN
                                                                                      9.3.2013.    

YOUR STORY!

Behind a thousand smiles,
I see flashes of tears,
Picture perfect poses, filled with joy,
But, underneath, true fears,
Your face tells a story, of what you went through,
Try as you might, I can feel your vibes, it is true!
Sadness, pain, regret, your eyes are the windows to your soul.
However hard you try, you yearn for true happiness, valid goals.
                                                                          TAZEIN
                                                                            29.1.2013.