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Monday, 14 January 2013

LIFE GOING DOWNHILL! DEC 2005-DEC2006


I had gone on a short visit to meet my parents in Karachi, in December 2005.Sadly my father felt unwell, so he was admitted in the hospital He was not breathing properly, within a matter of days his condition worsened, and he passes away.I cried my eyes out,felt a very strange grief, but we had to come back to Singapore, because kids school were starting, so we came back.I was shocked to find out that I was pregnant! I could not believe it! Not at all planned!I begged Saad to terminate, because I could not handle so much- trying to grieve for my father, and an unplanned pregnancy! So I bottled up all my feelings inside, never grieved for my father, just became numb for the whole 9 months!Throughout the pregnancy I ate a lot- it provided comfort ! I never used to see the ultra scans, because I could not identify with this baby! I felt guilty that after my father's death, I conceived, this guilt went on for 2 years!My father passed away on 9.9.2005, Malaikaah was born on 9.9.2006-This sentence says it all! STRANGE! The minute I looked at her, I in love at once, everything forgotten-I kept her name Malaikaah- means angel in Arabic. God took away my father but gave me this angel!

6 comments:

  1. Good afternoon Tazein,

    Thanks for your story: great stuff!!! I grieved tremendously when my father passed away. It took me 6 months before I felt a bit better.
    I was present during the birth of both of my daughters,and experienced an indescribable feeling of happiness; how much more must it be for the mother. Keep well. Joe

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  2. nice blog terimakasih telah share salam dari indonesia

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  3. Wow, what a story! Tremendous coincidence that your father's death date and your daughter's birthday exactly one year? Amazing. It is great to hear your story, I look forward to reading more. Thank you for reaching out.
    Jonathan

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  4. What a touching story... Thanks for sharing!

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  5. This story brought a lump to my throat and tears to my eyes. I'm so happy you were blessed with a little angel.
    God Bless,
    Sannel

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